Being alive was once so effortless.
The problems came when I fought it,
Making my life miserable by getting in my own way.
I step away from myself
To not trip myself
To get in my own way,
Because life takes so much effort
To stay on my feet
Keep from tripping myself physically,
instead of emotionally – like I did so many times in my past.
Life was once only as painful as I made it for my body
Battered and bruised for a day then rising like the dear reborn
To do it all again.
Now this body is full of pain from all the play work and party
Battered and bruised from the past
Scars burning hot with pain at times
Joints wagging fingers at me laughing at me for my past excesses
And for trying to do the young man things I still THINK I can do.
Now I have to work so hard to just get up each day
Push the pain away
But in a way it got easier
Because it’s all practice
(But the pains remain).
What got EASIER in life was… LAUGHTER
Because it’s all PRACTICE
Practice a life of laughter
And the pain is easier to deal with
The laughing at battles created fought won and lost
The laughing at myself inside and out
Laughing at life
Laughing at how so much that once meant so much,
Now means so little
Smiling about what I once took so much for granted
Now, means so much.