Let me give an example of my view of human insanity by how I and many other male children played when I was a child:

We played as soldiers. Or those who we saw on TV or in the movies. There were many such entertainments. Television shows about war. Dramas and comedies about war. The military. My friends and I would get toy guns and plastic or real helmets and play war. Wounded and dying without any idea what such was like or about. For us, a skinned elbow or knee. Death? A road kill morbidly stared at uncomprehendingly. I recall cowboys and Indian play but mostly WAR play. SOLDIERS. For some reason it was always the “Germans” we fought against with nobody knowing who they were. The bad guys, I guess now looking back. My best friend and I played with dolls. MALE DOLLS. SOLDIER DOLLS. We played with toy soldiers. War with plastic men in the dirt. I look back baffled by it all. My father had never been in the military. A friend’s father had. Yet none of us had any idea what WAR and KILLING were about. For YEARS every night on the TV news, there was news of places where US soldiers, airmen and sailors died. Vietnam, Cambodia and Laos. There seemed a huge disconnect between PLAYING that soldier stuff and real people getting killed and wounded and killing and wounding. 

My childhood was filled with a CULTURE OF WAR.

USA had it and has it and yet so few DO IT.

I was vaguely aware of some horrible thing called, “The Draft” but I was probably too divorced from reality to be shit scared of it. So many others were. By the time I was old enough it was safer. The draft was winding down. That lottery and then it was no more. AFTER I graduated from high school. 

I look back on my life and see that I grew-up in AN INSANE CULTURE OF WAR. 

The ultimate insanity being Nuclear War. 

I recall not knowing what it was when I was 7 years old but recall the horrible FEAR of it all around me. In my parents and everyone. A fear that was everywhere in everyone it seemed. It was a fear that made the whole world grey like falling ash. Once it ended, the world let out a collective sigh of relief and we went back to black and white then lives of rich color. 

I have realized that as a child I ACCEPTED the whole WAR thing. Fighting, dying, killing, maiming and being maimed. As I have grown older like religion, I have questioned it all. I was once a believer in a god and Jesus as a christian. I accepted it all as the way things are.  Then with questioning and knowledge, I lost belief in it. It was insane to me. 

In the same way I came to look at the USA and WORLD about WAR. WARS. How INSANE it all was. How insane that society promotes the sale of toys in which kids PLAY war. These days there are video game in which people kill and blow shit up. It is a high tech version of my play as a child. I admit I have played, CALL OF DUTY. I have asked myself WHY I do it? There is a fascination in watching how I feel when I play it. There is nothing real to it. Cartoon-like. Yet it shows killing and the player kills. DESTROYS. 

It is is part of our insanity. 

Predominantly MALE insanity. 

A part of me is insane or SICK that I find some thrill and fascination in it. There is no reality to it that would sicken me to war. No body parts and blood except for the little red here and there. It is sterilized. Let’s not make war look horrible. 

Which reminds me of the TV series of when I was a kid. Black and white TV shows. Bang the body falls. No blood. Noise and maybe music and the bodies fall. Ok this is war… not so bad. 

NOW all this is insane to me.

Society TEACHES this. 

We promote it. 

We encourage it with our gun culture. 

Our culture of death and destruction we lie about saying guns are only for self defense. 

How many KNOW the horrors of war?

So few and of those few I suspect they never want to see others live and die it nor experience it again. There is probably a disgust with video games that show it and trivialize it. 

Maybe (thinking aloud here) that “trivializing” of war is what makes it palatable. Likable. It’s ENTERTAINMENT for most Americans.

The fireballs that killed so many Japanese were those yellow very strange looking people. Nuclear weapons are what happens to someone else. Like war and violence NOT US. Thus, it is trivialized. 

The Germans and Japanese are now the most peace loving of people having had their countries nearly totally destroyed by wars. The Germans never had any nuclear weapons used on them yet they remember FIRE BOMBINGS of places like Hamburg and Dresden. Thousands burned to death. 

Few Americans know of all this. Any idea any REMOTE idea of the horror of it. The Germans and Japanese rarely play at war. There is a memory that now seems genetic of the horror of it all. 

The INSANITY OF IT ALL.

Over and over the USA has WARS. There have been no just wars since the Korean War and even that I now question. The Vietnam War was a war of choice as were all other wars. Not patriotic. Nobody was fighting to SAVE their country or DEFEND it. The reasons for the wars were all lies. 

There is an INSANITY in Americans and so many HUMANS that they seek and glorify what is nothing but killing and destruction. Yet we promote it. Glorify it. 

NOW we have people that lead us that more than any other time in our history promote and love WAR. Trump has canceled a treaty limiting nuclear weapons and wants MORE CREATED! It takes 100-300 nuclear weapons to destroy all human life on earth. After that, MAYBE some very primitive life forms can exist. Trump has promoted the USE of nuclear weapons without realizing that any bombing of any other country with nukes by the USA is suicide. The end of the world for ALL. 

THE ULTIMATE INSANITY.

From the insanity of war and a war-like culture to war ending life on earth.

Insanity.

Trump has millions that support him and thus supporting him, support his INSANITY. His possible ending of all life on earth or at least all human life. A man that got out of the draft during the Vietnam war and has no qualms about sending others to die or killing all of us. AGAIN – and those that follow and support him have no problem with him about. 

It is all insane. 

Like children playing anything about war.

Toy guns 

Kids tramping through the suburban fields acting like they are wounded and dying

As somewhere in another part of the world

Real children with real guns

Do fight

And do die. 

It is all insanity.

Men often think of women as the weaker sex. Yet women are not raised to exalt killing. Yes we see them hunting but it is not a normal way of life. A love of weapons and machines that destroy and wound. So many women are taught to nurture and grow and to me… this is a stronger sex. A SANER SEX. 

When I think of the sanest aspect of humanity, I remember…

OPERA.

To me the most complex highest form of art humanity has ever created. Second to that is classical music. Symphonies and orchestral pieces. Smaller pieces fewer players. HUMANS that compose. Write music. 

We have poetry. 

We have prose.

We have visual arts.

Yet visual arts that become poison when they PROMOTE OR TRIVIALIZE WAR and not paint it sing it or shape it as the sickness and insanity it IS in our society and in all of us. 

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