It’s a funny thing.

I sit here with maybe $7 in my checking account. In a way, that’s a good thing because this morning I threw all BUT that $7 at my debts. It is to atone for my sins.

My sins against myself.

Sure I’m an atheist but there IS a thing I believe is “SIN”.

To miss your mark.

To Err.

To fuck-up in life.

So what do you do when you do all that with your life?

You pay for it or try to if you have any honor, maturity or decency and a desire to raise your head higher.

I fucked-up a lot in life.

In that, I have been a “sinner”.

Not in any religious sense but a LIFE sense.

I have sinned against MYSELF. 

But I want to feel better about myself and make it right. Make life right. Prove to myself …

Screw it.

Nothing to prove just…

REDEMPTION for my sins against myself.

You see religious language is a part of life and culture. So many of us grow up with it. The language is a part of our life but the MEANINGS of that language change or become more adaptable to our own lives.

Sin.

Redemption.

I have sinned against myself many times. Yet I am a man of CONSCIENCE and that too is a part of the language but a word rarely used in religion but more a life word. I use it a lot because I see so many lacking it.

It has nothing to do with any god.

It has to do with your Self as a good person or a pile of human shit.

I am a good person of Conscience.

Thus,

I sin and I seek redemption within my own Conscience.

Because of it.

Where does “conscience” come from? I believe it’s a DNA thing or learned, like HONOR.

What matters is that when we sin

Err

Fuck-up,

If you have any good any conscience in you,

Reach for redemption. 

Make yourself feel good about yourself and … the world.

I know it sounds arrogant but… and hope there are others that feel and live the same way as you in that.

But without as many fuck-ups.