It’s a funny thing.
I sit here with maybe $7 in my checking account. In a way, that’s a good thing because this morning I threw all BUT that $7 at my debts. It is to atone for my sins.
My sins against myself.
Sure I’m an atheist but there IS a thing I believe is “SIN”.
To miss your mark.
To Err.
To fuck-up in life.
So what do you do when you do all that with your life?
You pay for it or try to if you have any honor, maturity or decency and a desire to raise your head higher.
I fucked-up a lot in life.
In that, I have been a “sinner”.
Not in any religious sense but a LIFE sense.
I have sinned against MYSELF.
But I want to feel better about myself and make it right. Make life right. Prove to myself …
Screw it.
Nothing to prove just…
REDEMPTION for my sins against myself.
You see religious language is a part of life and culture. So many of us grow up with it. The language is a part of our life but the MEANINGS of that language change or become more adaptable to our own lives.
Sin.
Redemption.
I have sinned against myself many times. Yet I am a man of CONSCIENCE and that too is a part of the language but a word rarely used in religion but more a life word. I use it a lot because I see so many lacking it.
It has nothing to do with any god.
It has to do with your Self as a good person or a pile of human shit.
I am a good person of Conscience.
Thus,
I sin and I seek redemption within my own Conscience.
Because of it.
Where does “conscience” come from? I believe it’s a DNA thing or learned, like HONOR.
What matters is that when we sin
Err
Fuck-up,
If you have any good any conscience in you,
Reach for redemption.
Make yourself feel good about yourself and … the world.
I know it sounds arrogant but… and hope there are others that feel and live the same way as you in that.
But without as many fuck-ups.