It’s a funny thing.
I sit here with maybe $7 in my checking account. In a way, that’s a good thing because this morning I threw all BUT that $7 at my debts. It is to atone for my sins.
My sins against myself.
Sure I’m an atheist but there IS a thing I believe is “SIN”.
To miss your mark.
To fuck-up in life.
So what do you do when you do all that with your life?
You pay for it or try to if you have any honor, maturity or decency and a desire to raise your head higher.
I fucked-up a lot in life.
In that, I have been a “sinner”.
Not in any religious sense but a LIFE sense.
I have sinned against MYSELF.
But I want to feel better about myself and make it right. Make life right. Prove to myself …
Nothing to prove just…
REDEMPTION for my sins against myself.
You see religious language is a part of life and culture. So many of us grow up with it. The language is a part of our life but the MEANINGS of that language change or become more adaptable to our own lives.
I have sinned against myself many times. Yet I am a man of CONSCIENCE and that too is a part of the language but a word rarely used in religion but more a life word. I use it a lot because I see so many lacking it.
It has nothing to do with any god.
It has to do with your Self as a good person or a pile of human shit.
I am a good person of Conscience.
I sin and I seek redemption within my own Conscience.
Because of it.
Where does “conscience” come from? I believe it’s a DNA thing or learned, like HONOR.
What matters is that when we sin
If you have any good any conscience in you,
Reach for redemption.
Make yourself feel good about yourself and … the world.
I know it sounds arrogant but… and hope there are others that feel and live the same way as you in that.
But without as many fuck-ups.