Today I find myself jumping between internet news sites, a TV program I binge watch and trying to focus on reading 1 of 2 books I have started. Ironically, 1 is about mindfulness 😉 Oh and sometimes I check my phone for anything incoming there.
I remember back BEFORE the internet how I would rarely watch TV and often read books. When watching or reading anything I would focus on IT and IT ALONE. I rarely multi-tasked. Multi-tasking is the ultimate monkey mind. Jumping around and not getting anything out of one thing. The mind not fastening long enough to one thing to get anything out of it. Like being at a party and constantly interrupted or interrupting yourself.
There is a sense of nostalgia and longing for those days when I had the discipline TO focus on one thing at a time. One line of thought. A feeling and sadness like one might have at having lost a part of their body.
I DO feel I have lost not my mind but part of it. The mindful part. The human focus mind. I feel that I have lost a part of my sanity and become mentally handicapped because there I go…. pardon me I have to check my phone.
Look at a news site see if I missed something.
Take a look at Facebook for the same above reason.
This is not the original software of my mind. It’s been corrupted by the recent tech age of internet, computers and smart phones. This is a form of disease of the mind but an accepted new normal for our minds and lives.
1 expressing negation: dislike | disquiet.
2 denoting reversal or absence of an action or state: dishonor | disintegrate.
• denoting separation: discharge | disengage.
• denoting expulsion: disbar | disinherit.
3 denoting removal of the thing specified: disbud | dismember.
4 expressing completeness or intensification of an unpleasant or unattractive action: discombobulate | disgruntled.
absence of difficulty or effort: he gave up tobacco and alcohol with ease | the guitar’s versatility and ease of handling.
• absence of rigidity or discomfort; poise: I was always vexed by her self-contained ease.
• freedom from worries or problems, especially about one’s material situation: a life of wealth and ease.
We change with progress.
We become mentally diseased and that becomes a new normal.
We become sick of mind and accept it but like all diseases we become aware of, we feel a sadness about it.
Awareness creates too a desire to remedy it or at least with awareness counter it.
Like any disease.